i guess going through a period of time in which you don't write in your blog creates a problem in keeping people reading. that seems to have happen with me. i suppose i can understand that since people can loose interest and yet there remains a drive in me to keep writing even if it is for the sole purpose of getting my thoughts out on paper so to speak. i must admit my thoughts obviously have not flowed as easily as they had been for some time. going through different things in your life i suppose can stop the flow of words and cause one to have a dry spot for a period of time or perhaps that is considered writers block, although i really don't consider myself to be much of a writer just one who writes down her thoughts hoping that somehow they will touch someone else. so, i suppose if one or two read this they were the ones that were meant to read and hopefully they are led to enjoy that which they have read.
i find myself, the older that i become disliking very much so being alone. i realize that as a Christian we are never really alone but, i find great satisfaction in having companionship, and the presence of another human being around. there was a time in my life when i didn't mind the time alone, most likely when my kids were young and i longed for the peace and quiet being alone would bring. but, like i said the older i am becoming the more i do not enjoy being alone. i must admit however one of the places that i do not mind it so much is when i am driving. that may be strange, but it is there that i often gather my thoughts. many i know do not have a choice but to spend time alone and many of you don't mind but, i am sure there are those of you who don't particularly care to spend time often feeling as though the only companion that you share is a dog or cat. yet, i can't help but believe that if this is the case God brings an extra amount of comfort and peace to you as you experience this time. you may wonder why i am spending time writing about this subject...i too am wondering just a bit. however, it is something that i have been thinking about lately and felt i would share my feelings regarding this subject and thought that just maybe it would strike a chord with someone reading. one thing that i have mentioned several times through out this post is that God is always with us. i am sure He fills in the gap when we are alone if we let Him, and reach for His special presence. God of course cannot make us reach out and touch the lovely experience of knowing that He is near, none the less He is. i think of the verse in scripture that says that God will never leave us or forsake us. so, if we tap into the full knowledge that He truly is in our presence perhaps it will lift or lighten the feeling of being alone. i say these things with obvious pointed fingers at myself because i am the one that has chosen to write such a post in my blog about hating the experience of being alone. when we look at it in all honesty we as believers in Christ Jesus are never truly alone, but we must reach out in faith and believe with our hearts that although we cannot see God He is there ready to fill our hearts with gladness and ultimate togetherness, if we but, reach out in faith and believe His presence is truly near.
