sometimes deep in my heart i wonder why people do the things that they do. what makes them tick? why do some say the first thing that comes to their heads? act as if they know the answer to all things and think more highly of themselves than they ought? who knows, maybe i'm describing myself to a point...i don't know. i know i don't wish to do any of the things that i've mentioned. but, the bottom line...we are human and we will fail, that for sure we can count on. i guess what matters is if we strive to be what God would want. at right about now, i feel like i'm rambling on. maybe i am who knows, i suppose i have thoughts just racing through my head, and questions that i don't have answers for. this blog has become pretty much unread. so, if anything it has become more of a personal journal. so, i will just pour out my heart. bottom line is: i don't understand people. mostly at this point in my life...Christians. lately i have been hurt so much by them. i'm a Christian and really want to draw close to Him, i'm not better than any one else, just a person covered by the grace of God. i have come to the realization that we must not look to people for much of anything, the minute you do, they will fail you, and that's including myself. most of this is just different thoughts that are presently overwhelming my mind...so, i am just writing it all down...kind of helps me feel a little better to get it out. why are sins sometimes rated? gossip seems to be the most accepted sin, while others are condemned.some of the Christians that i have come in contact with as of late seem to love to gossip. now i must make it clear not all love it, many see it for what it is. but, there are those who find it quite acceptable, and they spread gossip like it's second nature to them, like they don't even think twice about doing it. but, heaven forbid someone else committing another sin...these same people are right there quick as a wink pointing judgemental fingers...how sad, but, unfortunately true. well, so much for my rambling. just thoughts going on inside this head of mine. typing it out has somehow seemed to help...kind of getting it out...just raw, transparent, and me.
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