God never takes a person to a certain point to then make the decision to drop them off in a ditch out in the middle of nowhere. He is constantly carrying when we need it, and He is constantly taking care of us. We may not know what the future holds and we may question the purpose. But,comfort can be found in knowing that we are never alone, that God is always there. It is up to us to just hold on, listen and obey.
this came to my mind earlier today. all of it sounds great. is true. has complete overtones of comfort, but then i ask myself the question: "why, is it so hard to do?" my mind becomes filled with actually several questions. you know some of the normal ones: 1.) why is God doing this? 2.) when will it end? 3.) what is He trying to teach? 4.) how could this have happen? 5.) was it my fault? and honestly, i could go on and ask several more...at this point in time my mind is filled with questions. but, as i have written before, we see just a small, tiny place, a corner if you will on a huge canvass. there is no way in the world that it would be possible for us to see the entire picture, and even if we could because of the fact of our mortal bodies and minds we would be incapable of handling all that we would see and know.
as i have sat and intently thought of what our family is going through, i do believe the only way to bear the pain is to constantly give it over to the only one who can handle it and it is God Himself. see now what i just said is a prime example of me knowing what is the truth, my question is why then is it so difficult for me to follow through and do it? i feel like each time that i don't, i am falling short, and sinning. then of course there's the other part of me that says, "Kim, you are human, you will fail, yet at the same time strive to do what is right." i don't think we can apply 100% and all at once that which is the right and proper thing to do,at all times,at least that's what i believe and of course i could be wrong....i just feel as humans that have been saved by grace still live in a body that is earthly and perfection has not been obtained therefore mistakes will be made, even if God has revealed to us the answer and has shown us what we need to do to correct a situation or if we entirely apply that which He has shown, for problems to be much easier to face. i believe we are constantly striving, reaching, and yes there will be times of victories, but there will also be times when we don't quite hit the mark, is that to say that we are hypocrites? no, i believe it expresses the fact that we are human and must rely on God to help us. i fail more than i would like to admit. i write things here on my blog that God places on my heart and then to apply it to my own life, many times i fall short. God gives the answer but it can be difficult so many times to take that answer or answers and put them to practice. i will strive. i will aim for the goal of putting to practice that which God reveals to me. will there be times when i will fail? yes. is it because i don't care? no. it's because i am a human still growing in Christ, still learning how to apply what He reveals to me. and still yearning with all of me to be a servant whose heart longs to follow and obey.