just jotted down my thoughts...

i am sitting here thinking, and my mind keeps coming back to the place where a question is. the question is:"who does God use?" and the word that just seems to be most prominent is "humble." some people think that they are effective leaders, and many of them are numbers people, always concentrating on the number of people that arrive at church, the number of people that come out to this function, to that function, which honestly makes me wonder if it's more about themselves being given the opportunity to flaunt then it is about anything else. of course this is just my thinking, it's not to say that all who are numbers people also like to flaunt it, because many could just genuinely be excited about the number of people because the larger the number the more opportunity for lives to be changed and of course that should be the reason for desiring a big crowd to begin with. but, earlier i mentioned "humble" God uses individuals who exemplify the heart of servant hood. these individuals are thankful and are in awe to think that a God would see fit to use someone such as themselves to further His Kingdom. these individuals realize that aside from Christ they are nothing. they know that they are weak aside from His strength, and they aren't arrogant and do not come across as promoting themselves, but instead every ounce of who they are desires to give God the glory because they realize that all belongs to Him. the humble people that God uses are driven to their knees and many of them live with scars. honestly, i believe that this is the type of person that God uses to the fullest. they may be very good at one particular thing or have a certain gift in which they excel or may even have multiple gifts, but what's so awesome is that they are not arrogant, always trying to out do the other person, or are in competition and almost become irritated when something good happens for others, no they are happy for others who are being used of God, and thank God for other brothers and sisters in the Lord that are helping to build the Kingdom. yes, God uses the humble, those who are driven to their knees, some with many imperfections because when given to Christ He heals and He also takes those who live with scars and uses them as examples that Christ can heal and can help a person fully forgive. so, sitting here all of this is what came to mind. maybe i haven't typed it out to perfection but mainly just jotted down my thoughts as they came. if any of it made sense then praise be to God.