i woke up this morning so early it was 3:15 a.m. i whispered to scott, and told him, i was going to go and rest on the couch. i don't like to stay and toss and turn because obviously this would make it difficult for scott to sleep, and i know me well enough to know that usually once awake, it's not going to be simple for me to fall back asleep. so, i went out into the living room sat down on the couch, and just sat there for a while with a blank stare on my face. i then decided to grab my laptop. i opened it up and started to read a post from my blog, "transparent thoughts" titled "When God speaks do i listen?" i listened to the song, "Be Still" through my ear buds,and early in the morning as i listened to this beautiful piano piece with scripture verses God began to speak to me, but, at this point in time i didn't realize just how powerful it would be. after listening to this, i then started trying to find a song that would go with a post i had written on monday. this post was not at all light-hearted, but was very much heart felt, God gave me a song this morning and now it is posted. the song usually reiterates the post i've just written, and really speaks to my soul, the song that is posted now, i believe God led me to it.
i just kept being drawn back to the song "Be Still." listening to it several times. and through the ear puds, i now could hear the storm. i could see it light up, and then hear the faint rumbling. i listened to the song a couple times more, then took out my ear puds. it was now 5:15 a.m. and i thought that i should at least try and get maybe 45 minuets worth of sleep and so i tried, but, of course could not. so, as i sat there i started to speak the 23rd Psalm very quietly out loud over and over, and kept coming to the phrase "surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life." and each time i said it, i said it as if, surely, goodness, and mercy was going to follow me all around for the rest of my life. but, what it really meant was that goodness and mercy would definitely be following me everywhere for the rest of my life as long as i followed God. this was a done deal as long as i followed the King. so, "for sure" it would happen!
what i thought of next as i sat there thinking and pondering on the 23rd Psalm was as well interesting. but, first let me set it up by saying this. i've often heard it said, and have often repeated these lines. 1. God strategically places you where you are at for particular reasons; 2. you are where you are for such a time as this; 3. there is never a coincidence with God.
so, i tell you that to say as i sat there i thought, now, if these statements are true, which i believe them to be. then that meant that God had an appointment set for Kim Bostic on Wednesday, April 27, 2011 @ around 3:15 a.m. whether i knew it or not. and that He intended on me encountering Him. i thought: do i really listen when He speaks?, thoughts regarding the 23rd Psalm and what's following me forever, as long as i stick close to the King, kept flooding my mind(side note: who by the way He loves being with me too, as a matter of fact, He longs to have a close and personal relationship with me, longs to be my friend, and just loves to hear from me...all of the time.)
as i sat on my lovely couch, i spoke out to God, i know He was everywhere but, for some reason, i kept addressing the adjacent chair to my right. He was there, He wanted time with me. the last several days i have been feeling and sometimes even believing that He was not hearing my cries. but, He was, and He is, and He will continue to. sometimes and so very often it is a still small voice. but, after this morning, and the encounter i had with Him, i believe it was a tad bit louder. Lord You are great, You are Holy, You are lovely, You are gracious, and You will never, no never leave my side.....i love you my precious Lord and Savior.
When You Speak To Me