words just won't flow. i feel like i have part of my mind that's asleep. the interesting thing is, i haven't been able to sleep for the last couple of nights. last night i enjoyed listening to the thunderstorm, as i felt like my eyes were attempting to be forever stuck in one position....open. but, as i sit here complaining about the fact that i haven't been able to sleep, thoughts begin to flood over my mind and i begin to think about all of the catastrophes that are happening all around me. japan, the tornado's, the floods, the war, the war, the war,etc., etc. and the more i think, the more i realize just how much my lack of sleep means absolutely nothing in comparison to all of the millions of people who have been directly effected by horrible tragedies, and how many have even died. i never want to loose the sensitivity of knowing that my situation is nothing in comparison to what many others have gone through, and are going through. when i allow myself to think along this route it puts things into perspective. so, i have a few sleepless nights....i have God who takes care of me, a house to live in, a family that loves me, a dog, a cat, a couple of cars, people who care for me...an average american family, living an average american life. so, who really cares if i sometimes can't sleep, why concentrate on something, when put in the whole scheme of things means nothing, yes, absolutely nothing. i thought i was having a problem thinking clearly and had a problem finding something to write about, i can see now that i had no problem coming up with something to write about, just needed to look past myself and my "problems" and get a better perspective.
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