it has been brought to my attention that lately i have been writing things that seem deep, and that i have even come across as somewhat sad, or depressing. what i have to say to that is: first of all, i am a very deep thinker, sometimes i think too deep, if you know what i mean. secondly, i have a situation that is going on around me that is very difficult right now. trying to figure it out on my own, is like me taking a chisel and trying to break a whole brick wall down with it....not going to work at all, no matter how hard i try. so the choice that i have is to turn to Jesus. do i do an excellent job of turning to Him each and every time the thought of my circumstance comes to my mind?no. plain and simple, no. but, i desire with all of me to do just that.....turn to Him and allow Him to give me all that i need to handle, the questions that i have no answers to, the pain that i can't take away, the tears that i can't seem to dry, the emptiness that i can't seem to fill, and the security that i can't seem to replace. i can't handle this alone. it has to come totally from Christ, not kim. so, yes something weighs heavy on my heart, fills it full of pain and sorrow, even anger, and disgust. so, to try and handle it on my own, would completely tear me up inside and turn me into something that i don't wish to be. so, what is my answer? how do i handle such a thing? turn it over, not just to anyone, but to Jesus. i can't do this alone.
I Turn To You
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