"part" 7 a journey

the next morning they woke us up at 6:30a.m. now i must say that was really tough because i had not slept all night. a doctor came around to check on how each one of us were doing. it seemed so loud and the light from the hall seemed so bright. agnus gave me my morning medication. we were then told to get up and get ready for breakfast. i had no idea what i looked like, and usually in the morning i look pretty bad but, under the circumstances i didn't care, nor could i care. they lined us up and the loud thick doors opened and we walked through single file to the cafeteria. it was obvious that many had been there long enough to make friends and they all sat together. i sat at another table and sat alone, and all the while kept thinking, i'm not going to sit with those people they give me the "creeps" that morning i couldn't eat, i felt nauseated and so very lonely, once again i couldn't eat, nor did i want to. well, today this post is rather short it seems i have so much on my mind that pertains to other things and my mind is just not cooperating. i would have liked to have had this whole story complete by now, and i am sure many of you wish i'd get to the end of it. but, please bear with me this story will come to an end and you will finally begin to read other things that do not pertain to my bipolar illness.