continuation of "part 5" a journey

i remember looking at scott and saying, "i don't belong here, i just thought they were going to tweak my meds." scott answered and said, "no,  you do belong here and they are going to help you get better." i honestly did not become angry, because i knew he said it out of pure love, and deep down inside, i knew he was right. but, still there was a part of me that continued to think, i didn't belong there. soon it was time for scott to leave. before he left of course he hugged me and reasured me that i was in the right place and my purpose there was to get help. when he left i felt like he had left me in prison. when he walked out of the unit the door slammed and automatically locked shut. i noticed that the doors looked very heavy and secure, of course they were that way for a reason. after He left, i was so afraid, yet at the same time i felt the peace of my Savior come over me, i knew He was my friend, and that i was His and that all would be alright. i walked back down to my room sat on my bed and began to make it. of course i made it with my ohio state buckeyes blanket over the top, and it reminded me of scott. i had on the table next to me a book by joyce meyer entitled, "battlefield of the mind" i started to read it, as i was reading it was like a nurse appeared out of no where. i didn't hear her come in, but she came and sat next to me on my bed. she said, "hi, my name is agnus and i will be your nurse for this evening." to me she seemed like an angel, she was gentle tender, soft spoken, yet at the same time, seemed very strong, i read her name tag and she was the head nurse (wow, God was sure looking out for me.) agnus then continued speaking to me, she said, she knew about joyce meyer and loved that book (the battlefield of the mind.) she then said to me, "I bet you don't feel like you should be here." and i said, "no, i honestly don't," she said,"yes, you do, and we are going to help you." i knew i needed help, and felt such a comfort from her. and i knew deep down that God was there and had brought this gentle and tender nurse into my life. agnus then told me she would be back and she left my room. i of course also had my Bible and i opened it up to the psalms and started reading such awesome and comforting verses, God led me to verses i needed to read, for they brought me comfort, peace, and strength....i knew He was with me, and was not going to leave me alone. i once could not sense His presence but in the in the hospital room while sitting on that hospital bed, i felt Him, He was there, and oh, what peace came over me.

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